Inquietude

If only I’d known that it was the last time I was seeing you
Sitting by the table you were watching me
I was trying not to look
You were hard to give it a miss
I knew some magnetic power was pulling me towards you strongly
It was difficult to keep my feet on the ground
For all I care I wish I could have flown away to your arms
For that’s the only safe place for me on this earth
I knew you would hug till I would let go off you
Your heart was pounding
I could hear

 My warm breathe was screaming out loud my fears
Your heart beat kept reassuring me that I was safe
Silently.

Leaving you behind was never what I had imagined
But carrying you along was not an option
What our eyes spoke to each other that night
Was beyond any words that we knew
What I saw in your eyes was not a lie
And my eyes…
Couldn’t look into yours anymore
For the pain was unbearable
I believed what I saw.
Or rather I wanted to believe what I saw
For once I dint want to be corrected
I wanted to stay wrong and
Believe…
 

Memories are scary.
They hardly ever leave you
And you have been the most stubborn one.
I don’t blame you
I did pamper you.
Your memories.